dream, 18/10/09
I have had a few dreams in the last few days but haven't been able to get them down.
This one, again is set in high school. Our year level was kept inside. It was a building that looked very much like B Block at my old high school. I was in what looked like cross between a massive classroom and a university library. My teacher was very strict. I had spent all day researching something. For some reason, I couldn't find a bibliographical reference. There were dirty dishes everywhere on the tables.
I got up from my seat and was trying very hard not to cry. My former high school crush saw me and asked me if I was okay. I gently brushed him off and said yes. He knew I was lying. When I thought he'd got rid of me, I hid and wiped my tears and composed myself.
Suddenly, he jumped up and told me he couldn't hide stuff like that from me. I looked at him and said, how do you always know. He just smiled at me and took me outside the classroom to cheer me up. Without warning, he said my name and asked me if he could kiss me. I wanted to, but said no, you can't, I'm with someone now. I thought he was too. He said he wasn't any longer. He said that we belonged together. I said he missed his chance - my current lover was amazing, and I just couldn't do that to him. I'd never cheated on anyone, and didn't plan to start now.
He took me to a secluded part of the building. Our old schoolmate Nat saw us and asked us if we were finally a couple. I frowned.
They still weren't letting out our year level even though everyone else was outside playing. My Year 10 coordinator was keeping us in.
Steven, my crush, took me aside and tried to kiss me. I told him I wanted to kiss him, but wasn't going to. We lay under a blanket together and he got naked and put my hand on his erect penis. I let my hand sit there but refused to move it.
