dream, Wed 11/11/09

My friend mattJames is having a party for his birthday. Lots of EMSians are there. I think we're on the grounds of my old high school but it looks different, and much more spacious.

No one is talking to mJ. We wait for food to be served. There are mountains of noodles. Then burgers. I wait for sandwiches with ham in them, and also take some prosciutto.

Rob is there, even though at the moment he's overseas. He looks Indian, and very tanned. Him and Ris are no longer in France, but on some Pacific island and he hates it. She loves it. For some reason, they can't be in France. I suggest they go to French-speaking Switzerland, but still study in France. It's too expensive. Rob is paying the bill for a whole bunch of us. We try to stop him.

Suddenly, we're under a table, except that the tabletop is a large tapestry. People keep nearly pricking me in the head with their needles. My old schoolmate Michael D is there. We're talking under the table. I tell him I found an old letter of his. He says not to throw it away so I can show him.

On the tapestry, we all have symbols to represent us, or patches. People start sewing them together. For some reason, this is bad news and apparently I am either evil, or chosen. But then when they start sewing it to others' patches, it also means those people are evil too. I am able to sneak out from under the tapestry table. An old wizened man is playing with some magical cards on the table. He can't see me or I'm dead.

I start to leave the party. I go to get my bike helmet but my brother snatches me into his car and we forget my bike. I tell him I'll need it later. We drive down what looks like Swanston St. Police follow us after doing a U-turn. I thought they were after us.

My brother drops me off and then I have to accompany a woman who looks as beat-up as Eileen Wuornos. Except that she's gentle, and compassionate. She makes us stop to give money to some people and I give some loose change to the guy whose can is least full.

We then go to Myer for some guitar thing she really wants to listen to. Apparently some magical people are after me and will be able to tell that I am the person they are looking for by how well I play the piano. A whole bunch of us are made to play keyboards. I play badly, and am not found out.The piano is made of cake so what I'm really doing is grabbing fistfuls of cake and making a mess.

The magical police stop by me and have no idea I am who they are looking for. For some odd reason, I tell them and they cuff me.

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Posted 14 days ago

dream, Thu 29/10/09

Again, I was going to fail some English exam in high school. I'm supposed to have read the same book I haven't finished reading in all the dreams I've had recently. I think it's a non-fiction book, and I've missed a lot of class in the second semester.

I try to call this horrible person I was semi-seeing last year. He changes his number without telling me. I call the old number and get a very angry woman instead. She is mad at this guy too - he used to live as her housemate and has left her suddenly without giving appropriate funds.

I am staying in this beautiful mansion. My family are there - and because the house is so large, I don't get to see them much. My mother has booked some sort of compulsory family holiday while I'm supposed to have my English exam which I know I shall fail. It takes me quite some wrangling to get out of going.

I find out that my brother is cheating on his wife - he's found a girlfriend. I'm furious. I voice these misgivings with my mother who says that all men are supposed to stray after a while. I say, what, even though his wife is expecting a child? Mum says especially so. I am disgusted with my brother and decide I don't ever want to see him again. I say that I will be out of this mansion as soon as my exams are over.

My brother decides I am too degenerate to sleep on this special mattress he paid money for. The mattress is made of foam and is breaking up. I accuse my brother of being a fucking hipster and say fine, I don't want anything to do with you.

* * *
I'm still in this weird mansion and apparently I have a new boyfriend, a friend I met on Twitter. This apparently helps me decide I want to be with my current real-life partner, who I keep trying to reach via the phone but can't get hold of him.

* * *

I'm trapped in some weird fairytale setting. and I think I'm an old woman. They are conspiring to kill me. What they don't know is that because I have been bitten several times by this particular snake, I'm now immune to its venom. It ends up killing them instead - that being a man dressed in a beautiful flamenco red dress and a young woman.

Then suddenly I'm in Singapore with a bunch of people. One of them stops because she wants to buy Shu Uemura. A man comes up to me to talk to me. He looks like Marc Jacobs. We get shuffled off and I say goodbye to him, marvelling over the Shu Uemura cleansing oil packaging.

A cute Asian girl gives me an eyeshadow palette which comes with cute soft toys.

* * *
Back to the old woman. I turn these quasi Greek monsters into books. The library gets mad because I don't return them to the library. I'm confused, as I tell them, they weren't books before. I meet another girl who tells me I remind her of a heroine in the Chaos Revelations series. I tell her I will look them up in the library. I do so and am confronted by my old schoolfriend Andrea. She wants to go to another section of the library. I shrug and say fine, do what you want. I find the Chaos Revelations series and there are more than four volumes and they appear to be graphic novel adaptations of Shakespeare's plays.

I go to another section of library and begin composing a tune on my flute, and writing variations upon the tune.

I introduce T to some people from EMS. Em comes up to me and tells me mean Luke will stay overseas forever and that someone else, either Rob or Felix are coming home early. She thinks I'll be sad and then I say, I'm glad Luke is gone forever, and wager a lot of other people are too.

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Posted 27 days ago

dream, Sat 26/9/09

EMS Luke was leaving for somewhere (he has recently, in real life). For some reason, neither of us had any illusions - both of us were sad to be parting, though I'm not sure why as we were not romantically linked. He had insanely rare BPALs and was giving them to me to sniff. I spilt one of them on the carpet and thought he would kill me, but he didn't seem to mind. For some reason, he was leaving me contact details for him and for his sister or female cousin (in real life, he has no sister).The party we were having ended with pizza. L left and didn't mind me constantly kissing him goodbye. He even seemed to like it and couldn't even pretend to push me away.

tAlex and Rob and I were living together and all our bedroom doors were shut. I was in my room, shut my door so as not to bug them as I had music playing. tAlex then came in to join me and just talk and seemed interested in...spending proper quality time with me. I was a bit miffed. I tried not to ask any stupid open source computer questions around him but he seemed a bit more friendly about it and did his best to make me feel like I wasn't bothering him. I felt like all three boys were interested in me - as a person, not romantically. I was flattered and embarrassed that it made me feel liked.

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Posted 1 month ago

dream, Tue 7/7/09

Dinner had been organised in my area with my mentor. For some reason my mother and brother had to hitch a ride, and then we picked up an acquaintance along Plenty Rd (a main road in the area I live in). We went to the house my mentor was staying at which was near the old bluestone church on Plenty Rd. He insisted my mother eat. He then drove off with my brother and acquaintance without my mother and myself. My brother tried to tell him to stop but to no avail.

* * *

I was running, after a long drinking session. I'd been dumped by my old housemate and some EMS friends at a bus stop after witnessing my schoolmate Cathy get attacked by a drunken primary schoolmate. I stayed to try and break up the fight, but the EMSians left me when their tram arrived. I waited for a Night Rider bus to get home instead.

I was walking with someone else and another girl on a motorbike began to chase us. The other girl wouldn't wait for me so I had to hide. I saw a utility vehicle drive past. It had a dead woman in it.

I got to somewhere like home. This girl on the motorbike found me and began to try and attack me.

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Posted 4 months ago

dream, Fri 29/5/09

(I haven't been sleeping well so seem to be dreaming more again.)

A whole bunch of people I know and myself are in a field, playing some weird version of football. My brother is there, and I explain to him why I don't really like spending time with him. I tell him that I was annoyed he didn't visit or call while I was in hospital, and feel that once his wife got what she wanted out of me (as a bridesmaid), she forgot all about me. He explains to me that he didn't want to deal with anything unhappy straight after he got married. I reply to him that he cannot expect to ever be forgiven.

* * *

We're in the Philippines and I go to a house. Outside the house a whole bunch of EMSians are crying because ES's mother is dying and apparently she is well-loved by the EMS community. MD stops me and asks me why I am here. I tell him a friend of mine is dying - s/he won't yet die and this person has yet to find out, but they are dying. For some reason I know before them.

I am walking along the dirt/gravel road and SB and SM are there, in school uniform. I go up to SB and say, don't you recognise me? He does, but he pretends I have him confused with someone else he knows. I shrug and continue to walk along the road, alone.

* * *

I just remembered another amazing fragment - RI had this bag full of Tom Paine books - for some reason Common Sense was available in several large tomes. He was on his way to the library to photocopy them all as he'd borrowed them from the library. I thought he was insane to be photocopying so much.

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Posted 6 months ago

dream, Sun 24/5/09

This dream contains sexual concepts that some may find distressing or offensive. Kindly stop reading if you think this may apply to you.

(It's quite amusing - I was just talking to one of my best friends last night about how my dreams have ceased to be sexual and then I have this one. Curiouser and curiouser...)

My brother and I were children (I perhaps eight, my brother about five - coincidentally the exact ages we were when we arrived in Australia from England) and we were with our father. We were in some dystopic setting, sort of underground - to be honest, it reminds me of the awesome train system in World of Warcraft. All the trains/carriages were full and it was for some reason essential to our survival that we get on one otherwise we would freeze to death. Time was running out. Eventually, we found one - it seemed to be disconnected from all other carriages and it was at a dead-end. We were about to get into it when we discovered that it was full of half-rotting prisoners. I couldn't bear the smell and my father was very stern that for survival we would have to. I insisted I couldn't, whereas my brother instantly jumped into the carriage.

It felt like some of them moved as if stirring from a very deep sleep. My father dragged out one of the prisoners and we both began to lay next to him. Unfortunately, he began to actually wake up - he wasn't dying. My father hopped into the carriage and told me to lie next to the prisoner. We were in trouble if this prisoner woke up. The carriage was open from the back and my father began to shout instructions to me. I was really confused as to why he wanted me to do what he told me to do.

My father told me to open the man's trousers. Still confused, I obeyed but struggled. The prisoner helped me. I recall quite vividly - he wore navy jean-like trousers, and the zipper and button at top were brass. The prisoner gently took out his erect member from his underwear. My father told me to put my fingers around it and stroke it. It was massive and again, I did as I was told but the pressure I put on it was too gentle. I stroked up and down the member and the prisoner told me to do it faster. My small hand struggled with this and the prisoner put his hand over mine, as if to show me, and we continued to stroke together.

I had no idea why anyone would do this - I'd seen my brother's member and it didn't resemble the prisoner's at all. I didn't understand the difference.

Eventually, the prisoner came, and he turned to his side to do so. I watched his facial expressions and kept asking my father, was he is in pain, was he in pain, why was he in pain. The prisoner finished and zipped up his trousers and explained to me that sometimes when people are really, really happy, it looks like they are in extreme pain. We both slept on our sides.

* * *

The next part of the dream I remember is two Transformers (old-school, none of this new Michael Bay shit) in an alleyway. One was minuscule, the other massive. The minuscule one was begging next to a puddle. The large one then issued a command which effectively made the minuscule one commit suicide - by going face-down into the puddle. I heard the noise of electricity and water clashing. I didn't understand why the large one would do this - they were both Autobots. I watched in horror as the Autobot badge of the large one changed into that of a Deceptacon! He laughed the laugh of the comically evil.

* * *

Then I'm fully grown and with a girl who I used to know all throughout primary and high schools, till we fell out due to her big sister's wedding. We were going shopping in this amazing underground (literally, not "underground" as in exclusive) market. I'd got into a shop and found a hideous belt. She sat nearby and we spoke to a man from Mauritius - I spoke to him in French. I found this beautiful but tacky fingerless glove/sleeve thing - it was made of stocking material and fluoro pink and black with a bit of lace trim. It was perfect for covering my scarred left arm! It even showed off a nice tattoo I had on my forearm (that which I do not have in real life).

She got angry and decided to leave without me. As she had my bag, I couldn't pay and so I left without this glove/sleeve. I got lost in the rabbit tunnels of the underground market till eventually I came across people from EMS having some weird version of Monday pub night. JW was there and was uncharacteristically nasty to me. There were several familiar faces and we ended up going back to some place to sleep. We were all paired up differently - as if our romantic partners in real life had been shuffled so we got someone else's partner. I was too dizzy to sleep.

* * *

I was at some cafe and an old schoolmate walked in. I told him Bjork was covering Radiohead's "Everything In Its Right Place" and was shocked I'd never heard the cover before.

* * *

Again, some amazing fantasy setting - a little similar to the grandeur of places in the third Lord of the Rings film. I was tall, stately, and dressed in ivory and apparently king (yes, I retained my female features but in this world was male) of this place. As I walked through, people would come up to me and link arms with me for a stroll and I welcomed them to do so. I wanted to be approachable to all. A woman came up to me, dressed in black and her bodice was jewelled black - it looked stunning. She asked me questions - hard ones, such as in all the kingdom, what would I choose as most important to keep? We walked for a while, arms linked and I told her I would like nothing more than to spend time talking and eating with my partner (who was female, and known to be female despite donning similar attire to my male-female self). She said that was a good answer. An old musty-smelling Jewish man then walked by my left side with me and sang a song. I did not know what the song was about but found it immensely comforting.

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Posted 6 months ago